Being true to myself.
Yes, I gave birth almost 3 months ago.
Yes, my life is crazy these days.
Yes, it’s true that I don’t have a lot of things figured out.
And also, yes, I know when I am full of sh*t.
I know I can do better.
I know what it will take to get where I desire to be.
So, why am I not doing it?
I make these excuses for myself thinking it will validate things.
Some people may say I am being hard on myself,
And others will remind me to give myself grace.
But really, if you aren’t making steps towards where you want to be,
Then what are you doing??
Either nothing at all (standing still), or going in the opposite direction.
Figuratively speaking, the two are the same thing.
The Slap in the Face Moment
While scrolling on Instagram, I came across a post by a woman who really inspires me.
Like me, she has multiple kids, with one being a newborn.
Before I saw her newest post, I vented about my struggles to her in a DM.
I told how hard it is to find time for myself.
I complained about not having any balance these days.
She gave me solid advice without judgment (which btw, didn’t come with any excuses.)
After sending best wishes on her journey, she later posted a video that slapped me and my excuses – HARD!
It was a simple meal prepping video, but still!
It made me realize that my excuses are not validated.
There is no excuse behind choosing to not go to bed at a reasonable time to get my day started early the next morning.
My son is not a horrible sleeper, so what valid excuse can I give for always waking up tired and getting my day started late?
I desire to feel good, look good, and have more energy.
Yet, I’m doing nothing to achieve that goal.
Scratch that… I’m doing exactly what it takes to push myself in the wrong direction.
Again, I should give myself grace, I know.
But there’s no grace for being ill-prepared, unproductive, and undisciplined.
Simply put, I’ve got to do better.
I know it’s in me.
I can. I will. I must.