I’ve been on my journey for a little over two years now. There has been many good months, and many “trying” months. I don’t want to say bad months because going through them has made me learn more and become stronger.
As you can see above, the end of 2016 (after I got married) my progress spiralled and I didn’t know how or when I would get back on track. And to make matters…more annoying? I had just hit my goal weight of 155lbs a few weeks prior to getting married.
Long story short, I allowed myself to take a short break from eating healthy and exercise. Even though I craved to get back on track, that break along with ordering a new program (Core De Force) was exactly what I needed in order to get my mojo back.
I started the program Jan 9th 2017 and took off with it! I was able to lose some of the weight I gained and felt A LOT better. I no longer felt discouraged or tired. My motivation was finally back!
Now, here’s the problem…As of March 24, 2017 I find myself being “almost” where I was the end of last year. I have the motivation to exercise every morning, so there’s no problem there.
My struggle is with nutrition. I have a bad case of “eat healthy all week and eat like crap the 2 days my hubby is home from work.” And the fact that my family and I have 3 birthdays (with mine included) to celebrate within 3 weeks doesn’t make things any better. Can you say cake, cake, more cake, and alcohol?
I know what you may be thinking, “Oh, well you’re still eating healthy 5 days out the week…no big deal.” But for me, it is a huge deal!
I crave to be back on track 100% with my nutition like I was last summer. I crave to have more progress instead of being at a…standstill? I want to eat healthy every day of the week because I know it is what my body needs. So why can’t I do just that?
Here’s the truth y’all; I’m bored and I don’t have a why to drive me 😢
I’m bored of eating the same things every single day which I’m sure is the reason I eat like crap for those two days. I know I need a new meal plan but being that I’m so used to my current meal plan, I don’t know how or where to start in order to change it. Well, I take that back–I do, but I don’t have the motivation to start right now. The thought of meal prepping makes my head spin!
I need a why to drive my motivation train. And on top of that, I need to activate my discipline. At one point (last year) my goal was to reach 155lbs and that was it. I didn’t complain about it being my only “why” because it was enough to fuel my fire and surpass my goal. But now? A goal weight is not going to cut it!
At this point, my why has to be something more than that–much more! If it’s another goal weight, I, of course will reach it but then what? I will gain weight again. And I don’t need or want that happening again…even though it kinda, sorta is.
I’m drinking about a gallon and a half of water and exercising daily, along with eating a somewhat healthy diet. So the weight gain is slow. But trust me, it’s there. And it will only get worse if I continue with this path I’m on.
I wish I could end this rant on a positive note, but I can’t. I’m struggling to be “all the way” on it and just wanted to share it with you guys. I’m lacking discipline and motivation, and it shows!
I’m not perfect and don’t have everything figured out but I’m here and still trying! And taking things one day at a time.